• Health Anxiety Explained

    For many years I’ve written about health anxiety, my experiences and how it makes me feel. A lot of the time people are described as hypochondriacs when they worry about their health, I feel like this is an ‘old term’ for it, because doctors don’t diagnose people with hypochondria but for the sake of this post let’s get some definitions under our belts shall we; From the NHS website: “Health anxiety (sometimes called hypochondria) is when you spend so much time worrying you’re ill, or about getting ill, that it starts to take over your life.” All of this is that I speak about is from my own experience but…

  • Struggling During a Pandemic

    Now that’s a title I don’t think you’d ever expect to write in your life. A fucking PANDEMIC?! It’s been months and months and it still seems unreal. At the start of it all my mental health really wasn’t too bad, really I was in the best place I’d been for a long time. I wasn’t too deep in my health anxiety, my body confidence was high and I was happy. I haven’t been too scared by COVID this entire time, which is surprising considering my anxiety is surrounded by health. I just felt like it gives you more of a reason to try and live your life to the…

  • Am I confident in my body now?

    Before I begin I will be discussing eating disorders, anorexia and other mental illnesses (trigger warning) I have been deep in my eating disorder recovery now for quite a few years, discharged from the clinic around 2 years ago. My eating disorder journey started at an age which I don’t really remember but hit it’s peak at age 19/20. Here I am as a 25 year old woman and I have gained so much in my life ever since then. I’ve spoken openly about my mental health for years but I feel I have always been somewhat more protective over my eating disorder. I’m not entirely sure why I was…

  • Look who’s back…again

    Hello you, it’s been a while. It’s been too long, you’re like an old friend I keep meaning to meet up with but seem to avoid at all costs, my bad. I would love to say that my absence was for good reason, like I was travelling the world or doing amazing things with my life and ruling the universe. Fact of the matter is, I have just had a fucking funny year and haven’t felt like writing at all. Here I am again though, at a time when my mental health has taken a dip and I turn back to writing. I’ve spent the last few evenings just putting…

  • Scared of dying but not living.

    I’m scared of dying. Petrified actually, this whole thing with my health anxiety is based around the fear of being ill and having to end up in hospital and missing out on all that life has left to show to me.  But in the mean time, I’m not living. I’m far from it. I am living a nightmare, that’s true but living the life I am supposed to be living? Not at all.  Miserable, in pain and scared. Those are the things that seem to define me on my journey with health anxiety. Where is the happy girl I know I can be? Where does she go when she’s so…

  • Look Who Relapsed Again…

    Me, THAT’S WHO. Hi everyone, I flunked out on Blogmas and I apologise, I was really enjoying myself but then my brain took over. So it was Christmas time and what happens to me over Christmas? I freak out. I have no idea why, because I love Christmas so much. It happens most years and that’s just the way it goes, that is what I am used to. Christmas was coming and I had great news, I’d landed myself a new job in a different department at work. 2019 was setting itself up to be the best year! But then sweet, little, innocent anxiety comes in to play some games…

  • Letter to 2019 Me – BLOGMAS DAY 16

    Good day everyone, I hope you are having a great day. Christmas is so soon! Now you know we love a good letter on this blog, so let’s do a letter to future Shannon, shall we? Dear Shannon (…in the future) 2019 is a new year with fresh starts in the palm of your hands. It is the most cliché thing ever to say ‘new year, new me’ so we won’t say that. But it is a time where you can reflect and decide where you’d like to take the next 365 days.You know, we’ve got so much planned haven’t we? We’ve already got holidays planned, best friends are getting married (so now is a…

  • Letter To Myself This Year – BLOGMAS DAY 13

    Happy Blogmas day 13 everyone! I’m just going to jump straight into this one…  Dear 2018 Shannon, What a year it has been. Isn’t that the most cliché thing that could ever be said at the end of any year? I mean, it’s fucking true though. The ups and downs have been real.  Amazing ups and terribly low, lows. The ups were more often than last year, that was great. We went on loads of lovely holidays, had almost anxiety free holidays (AMAZING!) saw bands we’ve loved for years and enjoyed ourselves on days when there wasn’t even much to do. The lows were rubbish, mental health issues were still at an…

  • Mental Health At Christmas Time – BLOGMAS DAY 9

    Hey everyone, I hope you are enjoying blogmas so far!  This post is one usual to my typical blog posts, mental health. Mental health at Christmas time is a tough one, always has been for me anyway. I LOVE Christmas, always have and always will but I also fall into depression and anxiety quite badly around this time of year. I think it’s because my mind does not want me to be happy and enjoy what is happening. What a fucker. It is a tough time of year, and that’s okay! It is okay to not be bouncing off the walls, going out and getting merry because you would rather stay in and chill…

  • Mental Health Habits…

    Hello everyone! Over the years with my mental health I have racked up a bunch of habits that live with me still whether the certain mental health issue does as well is another story. I thought I’d share some because I think it’s totally normal to hold onto some of these habits because your mental illness was a part of you for so long, my mental illnesses as awful as they have been have shaped me as the human I am now. With my eating disorder I have some habits I have kept and some I have no fucking idea why and some others that stick with me too: Savoury…