• Physical VS. Mental

    Hiiiiii, So something that has really been bothering me recently is the difference in how mental illnesses are treated in comparison with physical. I personally, feel like I’m just being silly and weak if I need time for myself because everything is getting too much but my Eating Practitioner said to me “would you feel the same if you had a broken leg?” – of course not, I’d be laying on that sofa watching crap day time telly with no guilt whatsoever. I’ve had a few moments recently where I physically cannot face the world, I can only face a few and that’s my family, Ryan and my best friend…

  • Continuing the fight.

    Hi hi hi, I haven’t posted since October, oh me. It’s been a mare of a few months, here’s a short summary – I’m employed (do I enjoy it? I shall not disclose that on the internet) ((take from that what you will)), I’m still with that Ryry Evz and we’re saving to move out, joint bank account and all! But more importantly, I’m still suffering with that eating disorder and depression that is being a cheeky mother fucker and just does not want to budge out of my life. Let’s get into it, the last time I posted I was just starting my time at the eating disorder clinic…

  • Taking control.

    Today I said something out loud that I’ve never really spent the time thinking too much about. On my way home from an appointment with my eating disorder practitioner, after realising that I really AM fully on the road to recovery I realised that I am afraid to be okay. I said to my mum and my brother “I’m scared to not have anything anymore” – it sounds RIDICULOUS. But it was followed by a tonne of tears and a crying headache. It’s the truth though, I feel like I am afraid of being okay because like I also said to them, I don’t know who or what I am…

  • Everybody Needs A Helping Hand

    Mental illnesses are crazy things, feeling lonely in a room full of people is a good way to describe it, isn’t it? Feeling like the whole world is against you, feeling like even your own mind is against you. Who is there for you? No one. That’s what it feels like anyway, but is that the case? No. Not at all. If you know me then you know what I’ve been through, if you don’t then I did a previous blog post before in about October last year (I may do a follow up post, but I’m still making a decision about that). Anyway! My situation is nothing compared to…