• Am I confident in my body now?

    Before I begin I will be discussing eating disorders, anorexia and other mental illnesses (trigger warning) I have been deep in my eating disorder recovery now for quite a few years, discharged from the clinic around 2 years ago. My eating disorder journey started at an age which I don’t really remember but hit it’s peak at age 19/20. Here I am as a 25 year old woman and I have gained so much in my life ever since then. I’ve spoken openly about my mental health for years but I feel I have always been somewhat more protective over my eating disorder. I’m not entirely sure why I was…

  • Mental Health Habits…

    Hello everyone! Over the years with my mental health I have racked up a bunch of habits that live with me still whether the certain mental health issue does as well is another story. I thought I’d share some because I think it’s totally normal to hold onto some of these habits because your mental illness was a part of you for so long, my mental illnesses as awful as they have been have shaped me as the human I am now. With my eating disorder I have some habits I have kept and some I have no fucking idea why and some others that stick with me too: Savoury…

  • It’s Okay..

    Hello everyone, I hope you are all well! How am I you so eagerly ask? I’m okay…I am getting there. Well and truly getting there, some days are bad, some days are fucking awful but some days are okay. I am slowly getting my motivation back, slowly getting a calmer mind and seeing that it’s all going to be okay day by day. I am almost at the ideal weight my nurses want me to be at and I’ve never reached that point before, I am proud. What a roller coaster it has been. I think about that a lot, I claim this year has been the worst of my…

  • You’re Doing Okay

    Hey everyone! Firstly I’d like to say a Happy New Year to you all, let’s make it one full of positivity and love and all the good shit. I’ve slacked so much on the blog lately and I’ve said this a billion times on here but my motivation has been fucked. I have been poorly over Christmas and not wanted to do a thing let alone blog. I’ve got some blog ideas in my head so they’ll come shortly, you know, the usual 2017 goals, BLAH BLAH BLAH. For now though I wanted to just talk about what’s going on, where I’m at, how I’m feeeeeeeeeling. Hi my name is…

  • Where am I at?

    Hey everyone, It’s been a tough morning, I have to say. I’m going away this weekend and this always fills me with crippling anxiety – I don’t know why. I think I’ve been building up to a bit of a breakdown all week and it happened this morning and I feel so guilty. I feel guilty that I let it get the better of me and I let it control whether or not I was going to go to work (I didn’t) – I try to be positive on here, radiate positivity and pretend I’m doing just fine. I only ever come back on here when something really gets to…

  • World Mental Health Day 2016

    Hi everyone! It’s World Mental Health Day today, I don’t know why this day always make me think so much (like I don’t do that enough anyway) – but it makes me reflect, where I’m at, where I’m going, how far I’ve come. I’ll be honest I’m still struggling, the struggle is so real. I’m getting there though. My therapy sessions are coming towards the end and I could’ve cried when I realised last week that this was the case. I don’t know why I felt emotional, but I’ve built up such a trust and faith in my therapist it’s going to be very strange not seeing her every week.…