• Health Anxiety Explained

    For many years I’ve written about health anxiety, my experiences and how it makes me feel. A lot of the time people are described as hypochondriacs when they worry about their health, I feel like this is an ‘old term’ for it, because doctors don’t diagnose people with hypochondria but for the sake of this post let’s get some definitions under our belts shall we; From the NHS website: “Health anxiety (sometimes called hypochondria) is when you spend so much time worrying you’re ill, or about getting ill, that it starts to take over your life.” All of this is that I speak about is from my own experience but…

  • Scared of dying but not living.

    I’m scared of dying. Petrified actually, this whole thing with my health anxiety is based around the fear of being ill and having to end up in hospital and missing out on all that life has left to show to me.  But in the mean time, I’m not living. I’m far from it. I am living a nightmare, that’s true but living the life I am supposed to be living? Not at all.  Miserable, in pain and scared. Those are the things that seem to define me on my journey with health anxiety. Where is the happy girl I know I can be? Where does she go when she’s so…

  • Look Who Relapsed Again…

    Me, THAT’S WHO. Hi everyone, I flunked out on Blogmas and I apologise, I was really enjoying myself but then my brain took over. So it was Christmas time and what happens to me over Christmas? I freak out. I have no idea why, because I love Christmas so much. It happens most years and that’s just the way it goes, that is what I am used to. Christmas was coming and I had great news, I’d landed myself a new job in a different department at work. 2019 was setting itself up to be the best year! But then sweet, little, innocent anxiety comes in to play some games…

  • New Things…

    Hello everyone!  Long time no blog post… I’ve had a funny few months, ups and downs, the usual in the land of Shannon. But if you were not aware I have created a brand new YouTube channel! Exciting stuff.  I launched it a couple of weeks ago to talk all things Mental Health. From my journey to yours, the ins and outs, things you may not have known and things you know all too well. I wanted to bring the topic of mental health into the lives of people around me. I am surrounded by people who are very open to mental health, luckily! However, so many others are not…

  • Take Your Own Advice…

    Hey everyone, As you well know I enjoy doing a blog post when times are very tough – it helps me. Right now I’m having a fucking tough day. Heres the thing I can talk the talk but I can’t walk the walk, I can do blog posts upon blog posts talking about how to try and get through bad spells of mental health but here I am, still struggling daily. Some days are better, some really are not and today is one of those days. I’ll be honest I have spent the day panicking, internally and externally. I have wound my mum up all day and annoyed myself. I…

  • A Letter To Me…From Me (The Good Side)

    To Shannon, You’re struggling and that’s okay. You’ve gone up and down your entire life, this is just a bad time and it will get better I know it will. I wanted to talk to you in a way so you can read this whenever you are struggling and whenever the bad side takes over. I love you and I care for you, more than you know and realise. There is a little bit in there that wants to look after you, not hurt you and that’s me. You listen so strongly to the bad side that it controls you completely, I’m trying my best to fight for you but…

  • I Went Backwards…

    Hi everyone, I’ve been very much absent from posting for a while now. I was so happy a little while ago, anxieties disappearing, wanting to get on top of my eating disorder, the lot you know. I took a turn, my biggest turn in my mental health journey – even as I write this I’m trying to hold back tears because I am so fed up, so hurt by my own brain. I don’t know how it started or when but it did. My health anxiety took over and I’ve been in the palm of its hand ever since. I have never had anxiety like it in my life and…