• Health Anxiety Explained

    For many years I’ve written about health anxiety, my experiences and how it makes me feel. A lot of the time people are described as hypochondriacs when they worry about their health, I feel like this is an ‘old term’ for it, because doctors don’t diagnose people with hypochondria but for the sake of this post let’s get some definitions under our belts shall we; From the NHS website: “Health anxiety (sometimes called hypochondria) is when you spend so much time worrying you’re ill, or about getting ill, that it starts to take over your life.” All of this is that I speak about is from my own experience but…

  • You’re Doing Okay

    Hey everyone! Firstly I’d like to say a Happy New Year to you all, let’s make it one full of positivity and love and all the good shit. I’ve slacked so much on the blog lately and I’ve said this a billion times on here but my motivation has been fucked. I have been poorly over Christmas and not wanted to do a thing let alone blog. I’ve got some blog ideas in my head so they’ll come shortly, you know, the usual 2017 goals, BLAH BLAH BLAH. For now though I wanted to just talk about what’s going on, where I’m at, how I’m feeeeeeeeeling. Hi my name is…

  • World Mental Health Day 2016

    Hi everyone! It’s World Mental Health Day today, I don’t know why this day always make me think so much (like I don’t do that enough anyway) – but it makes me reflect, where I’m at, where I’m going, how far I’ve come. I’ll be honest I’m still struggling, the struggle is so real. I’m getting there though. My therapy sessions are coming towards the end and I could’ve cried when I realised last week that this was the case. I don’t know why I felt emotional, but I’ve built up such a trust and faith in my therapist it’s going to be very strange not seeing her every week.…

  • An Open Letter To My Eating Disorder

    Hello everyone, You may wonder why I’m making something like this public, why I’m putting it on the internet? You know me, I’m so open about my mental health and would do anything I could to raise awareness and to get others to help themselves or help those around them. If this helps one person have more of an insight, if it helps one mum have a slight look into what is going on in their childs mind then that’s all I want. I want to help, this small platform could do that, or so I hope. Here goes… Dear my friend and my enemy, I say friend loosely…my enemy strongly.…

  • Everything to gain…

    Hiiiiiii everyone, another day another post about my mental health. I’ve been thinking about what I have to gain and lose from my mental health, it’s tricky. I’ve spoken before how it feels like my head is split in half, one side is stuck in the mental illness side of things – this side wants to stay in the warped comfort of my eating disorder and my anxieties that drive me up the wall daily (but also drive me… it makes sense to me). The other side of my head is the one that wants to be better, wants to live for my future and stop being stuck in this…

  • Update!

    Hey everyone, Oh me here again with more excuses as to why I haven’t posted in a trillion years – I have many. I’ve moved house! I’VE ACTUALLY MOVED OUT. Myself and my boyfriend, Ryan moved out into our first little home together. It’s so sweet, I am planning on doing a homeware post (am obsessed with homeware, have been since I left the womb – after I made that place all cosy of course.) I’ve been working at the same job I’ve been working at since October, still there, still loving life :———————-) take from the long ass smiley face what you will. Finally, I’ve still been struggling with…stuff.…

  • Physical VS. Mental

    Hiiiiii, So something that has really been bothering me recently is the difference in how mental illnesses are treated in comparison with physical. I personally, feel like I’m just being silly and weak if I need time for myself because everything is getting too much but my Eating Practitioner said to me “would you feel the same if you had a broken leg?” – of course not, I’d be laying on that sofa watching crap day time telly with no guilt whatsoever. I’ve had a few moments recently where I physically cannot face the world, I can only face a few and that’s my family, Ryan and my best friend…

  • Continuing the fight.

    Hi hi hi, I haven’t posted since October, oh me. It’s been a mare of a few months, here’s a short summary – I’m employed (do I enjoy it? I shall not disclose that on the internet) ((take from that what you will)), I’m still with that Ryry Evz and we’re saving to move out, joint bank account and all! But more importantly, I’m still suffering with that eating disorder and depression that is being a cheeky mother fucker and just does not want to budge out of my life. Let’s get into it, the last time I posted I was just starting my time at the eating disorder clinic…

  • Taking control.

    Today I said something out loud that I’ve never really spent the time thinking too much about. On my way home from an appointment with my eating disorder practitioner, after realising that I really AM fully on the road to recovery I realised that I am afraid to be okay. I said to my mum and my brother “I’m scared to not have anything anymore” – it sounds RIDICULOUS. But it was followed by a tonne of tears and a crying headache. It’s the truth though, I feel like I am afraid of being okay because like I also said to them, I don’t know who or what I am…

  • World Mental Health Day 2015

    Hi hi hi, I never post anymore I am a poop head I’m sorry! I just have so much going on (that’s a complete and utter lie, I’m unemployed, I have nothing to do) It’s world mental health day, a day close to my little heart. You know me, I’m very open about my mental health, it’s very important to speak about it and keep it alive! The worlds backs should never be turned on the concept of somebodies mental health, keep talking about it and keep looking after each other – pEACE OUT. I’m not actually done at all, I’ve not even begun! Where is my mental health at…