• Health Anxiety Explained

    For many years I’ve written about health anxiety, my experiences and how it makes me feel. A lot of the time people are described as hypochondriacs when they worry about their health, I feel like this is an ‘old term’ for it, because doctors don’t diagnose people with hypochondria but for the sake of this post let’s get some definitions under our belts shall we; From the NHS website: “Health anxiety (sometimes called hypochondria) is when you spend so much time worrying you’re ill, or about getting ill, that it starts to take over your life.” All of this is that I speak about is from my own experience but…

  • Struggling During a Pandemic

    Now that’s a title I don’t think you’d ever expect to write in your life. A fucking PANDEMIC?! It’s been months and months and it still seems unreal. At the start of it all my mental health really wasn’t too bad, really I was in the best place I’d been for a long time. I wasn’t too deep in my health anxiety, my body confidence was high and I was happy. I haven’t been too scared by COVID this entire time, which is surprising considering my anxiety is surrounded by health. I just felt like it gives you more of a reason to try and live your life to the…

  • Am I confident in my body now?

    Before I begin I will be discussing eating disorders, anorexia and other mental illnesses (trigger warning) I have been deep in my eating disorder recovery now for quite a few years, discharged from the clinic around 2 years ago. My eating disorder journey started at an age which I don’t really remember but hit it’s peak at age 19/20. Here I am as a 25 year old woman and I have gained so much in my life ever since then. I’ve spoken openly about my mental health for years but I feel I have always been somewhat more protective over my eating disorder. I’m not entirely sure why I was…

  • Look who’s back…again

    Hello you, it’s been a while. It’s been too long, you’re like an old friend I keep meaning to meet up with but seem to avoid at all costs, my bad. I would love to say that my absence was for good reason, like I was travelling the world or doing amazing things with my life and ruling the universe. Fact of the matter is, I have just had a fucking funny year and haven’t felt like writing at all. Here I am again though, at a time when my mental health has taken a dip and I turn back to writing. I’ve spent the last few evenings just putting…

  • Mental Health Habits…

    Hello everyone! Over the years with my mental health I have racked up a bunch of habits that live with me still whether the certain mental health issue does as well is another story. I thought I’d share some because I think it’s totally normal to hold onto some of these habits because your mental illness was a part of you for so long, my mental illnesses as awful as they have been have shaped me as the human I am now. With my eating disorder I have some habits I have kept and some I have no fucking idea why and some others that stick with me too: Savoury…

  • Mental Health: A Best Friends Point Of View

    Hey everyone, Welcome to part one of three…I am starting a new little ‘series’ where I will get 3 of the most important people in my life and my mental health journey to just talk a little about how it has affected them. First of all, my best friend Ben Ben has been my best friend for many years. We met at school, I used to go into one of the blocks and watch him play ping pong and then he would come over and make me laugh until I wanted to pee (he still does)  We have a very special friendship, I love him like a brother. I laugh,…

  • Take Your Own Advice…

    Hey everyone, As you well know I enjoy doing a blog post when times are very tough – it helps me. Right now I’m having a fucking tough day. Heres the thing I can talk the talk but I can’t walk the walk, I can do blog posts upon blog posts talking about how to try and get through bad spells of mental health but here I am, still struggling daily. Some days are better, some really are not and today is one of those days. I’ll be honest I have spent the day panicking, internally and externally. I have wound my mum up all day and annoyed myself. I…

  • Light Bulb Moments

    Throughout your mental health journey there will be times when you really think you’ve made a huge breakthrough. Something will ping in your head and you’ll wonder why you are staying within the grips of your mental illness. You will listen to a story, realise the pain you’re putting yourself through or see your mum break down time and time again and you will have little breakthroughs. Unfortunately they don’t always last long and that’s okay. Little breakthroughs are good, well done! But if you go backwards after a couple of days, that’s okay too…the journey was never made to be an easy one. I find that little breakthroughs show…

  • It’s Okay..

    Hello everyone, I hope you are all well! How am I you so eagerly ask? I’m okay…I am getting there. Well and truly getting there, some days are bad, some days are fucking awful but some days are okay. I am slowly getting my motivation back, slowly getting a calmer mind and seeing that it’s all going to be okay day by day. I am almost at the ideal weight my nurses want me to be at and I’ve never reached that point before, I am proud. What a roller coaster it has been. I think about that a lot, I claim this year has been the worst of my…

  • World Mental Health Day 2017

    Hey everyone, The time of year has come again where we all seem to recognise mental health, and that’s great. It should be recognised and fought for every single day but if one day makes more people stand up and talk and stand up and realise what is happening then again, that is great. Over the last few months I have written quite a few of blog posts talking about how I’m getting on and my on going struggles with my own mind. With this I have had quite a few people come and speak to me about their own troubles and that is AMAZING. It’s fucking terrible that they…