• Health Anxiety Explained

    For many years I’ve written about health anxiety, my experiences and how it makes me feel. A lot of the time people are described as hypochondriacs when they worry about their health, I feel like this is an ‘old term’ for it, because doctors don’t diagnose people with hypochondria but for the sake of this post let’s get some definitions under our belts shall we; From the NHS website: “Health anxiety (sometimes called hypochondria) is when you spend so much time worrying you’re ill, or about getting ill, that it starts to take over your life.” All of this is that I speak about is from my own experience but…

  • Am I confident in my body now?

    Before I begin I will be discussing eating disorders, anorexia and other mental illnesses (trigger warning) I have been deep in my eating disorder recovery now for quite a few years, discharged from the clinic around 2 years ago. My eating disorder journey started at an age which I don’t really remember but hit it’s peak at age 19/20. Here I am as a 25 year old woman and I have gained so much in my life ever since then. I’ve spoken openly about my mental health for years but I feel I have always been somewhat more protective over my eating disorder. I’m not entirely sure why I was…

  • You Bring Me Home.

    Hello everyone, it’s been a bloody long time hasn’t it? If you weren’t aware I’ve been spending a lot more time focussing on my YouTube channel and I seem to have abandoned my original outlet – this blog. If you want to watch me ramble, you can do so hereAnyway, on to todays post… Look at my new little tattoo, isn’t it so perfect?  I’ve done posts in the past about my tattoos and their meanings and this one is the one which people might be like “why the fuck have you done that” – you know what they say, don’t get anyone’s name tattooed on you. I learnt that…

  • Mental Health: A Boyfriends Point Of View

    Hello everyone! Happy Sunday, here we are, part two of my three blog posts with my loved ones on mental health. This time it is with my boyfriend, Dan. I have spoken about Dan so many times on this blog and in real life, he is my main talking point. I’ve spoken about being in love when having anxiety before here – it’s fucking hard. It is so hard, to put someone through something when they have the choice to leave, it’s hard to try and hold on to someone. But with Dan, I don’t feel like that although I will always say to him “you could have a much easier…

  • Light Bulb Moments

    Throughout your mental health journey there will be times when you really think you’ve made a huge breakthrough. Something will ping in your head and you’ll wonder why you are staying within the grips of your mental illness. You will listen to a story, realise the pain you’re putting yourself through or see your mum break down time and time again and you will have little breakthroughs. Unfortunately they don’t always last long and that’s okay. Little breakthroughs are good, well done! But if you go backwards after a couple of days, that’s okay too…the journey was never made to be an easy one. I find that little breakthroughs show…

  • Acceptance of your Mental Health

    As I grow I am really learning to accept my anxiety for what it is. I guess I would see it as a friend, a weird fucking friend who wants to destroy your life but you can’t let them go because they’ve been your friend for so long. So long that you don’t know what you would do without them, because they seem to act like they know what they’re doing, they’ve seen life in a different way and they want to keep you safe. This is bullshit, they don’t want to do any of those things for you. They are like a jealous friend who sees that you have…

  • Ways To Distract and Be Kind To Yourself…

    Hello everyone! So over the months I have been using distraction as a way to erm…distract myself…I fucking rule at writing. ANYWAY, when things are a bit shit I have to distract myself, thats the way to get out of the vicious circle that is anxiety. When I was in my darkest moments even distraction would not work and I still have those days now I’ll be honest! But when I can distract myself it is good and it is fun. It is all about self love, looking after number one and treating number one to the goodness that the world has to offer. I’ve just made a list of…

  • It’s Okay..

    Hello everyone, I hope you are all well! How am I you so eagerly ask? I’m okay…I am getting there. Well and truly getting there, some days are bad, some days are fucking awful but some days are okay. I am slowly getting my motivation back, slowly getting a calmer mind and seeing that it’s all going to be okay day by day. I am almost at the ideal weight my nurses want me to be at and I’ve never reached that point before, I am proud. What a roller coaster it has been. I think about that a lot, I claim this year has been the worst of my…

  • World Mental Health Day 2017

    Hey everyone, The time of year has come again where we all seem to recognise mental health, and that’s great. It should be recognised and fought for every single day but if one day makes more people stand up and talk and stand up and realise what is happening then again, that is great. Over the last few months I have written quite a few of blog posts talking about how I’m getting on and my on going struggles with my own mind. With this I have had quite a few people come and speak to me about their own troubles and that is AMAZING. It’s fucking terrible that they…

  • “Love” with Anxiety.

    Hellooooo everyone another mental health post, oh me. I’m surrounded by love and support there’s absolutely no denying that. I have more friends than I could ever dream of, I’ve always been lucky to find friends in different places. I have my life long friends, my work friends, my friends from uni, my online friends that I’ve met through bands and my international friends (Erin, that’s you). I have so much love to shower me in.I have a big loving family and a bloody lovely boyfriend. I love to love.The hardest thing with suffering from anxiety and depression is to know that you’re upsetting those who love you so much and…