• Continuing the fight.

    Hi hi hi, I haven’t posted since October, oh me. It’s been a mare of a few months, here’s a short summary – I’m employed (do I enjoy it? I shall not disclose that on the internet) ((take from that what you will)), I’m still with that Ryry Evz and we’re saving to move out, joint bank account and all! But more importantly, I’m still suffering with that eating disorder and depression that is being a cheeky mother fucker and just does not want to budge out of my life. Let’s get into it, the last time I posted I was just starting my time at the eating disorder clinic…

  • Taking control.

    Today I said something out loud that I’ve never really spent the time thinking too much about. On my way home from an appointment with my eating disorder practitioner, after realising that I really AM fully on the road to recovery I realised that I am afraid to be okay. I said to my mum and my brother “I’m scared to not have anything anymore” – it sounds RIDICULOUS. But it was followed by a tonne of tears and a crying headache. It’s the truth though, I feel like I am afraid of being okay because like I also said to them, I don’t know who or what I am…

  • World Mental Health Day 2015

    Hi hi hi, I never post anymore I am a poop head I’m sorry! I just have so much going on (that’s a complete and utter lie, I’m unemployed, I have nothing to do) It’s world mental health day, a day close to my little heart. You know me, I’m very open about my mental health, it’s very important to speak about it and keep it alive! The worlds backs should never be turned on the concept of somebodies mental health, keep talking about it and keep looking after each other – pEACE OUT. I’m not actually done at all, I’ve not even begun! Where is my mental health at…

  • To be okay…

    Helloooo! Today (or this evening) I wanted to talk about the recovery I’m going through at the moment and people may possibly be able to relate to the way I have felt throughout.  My journey to health and happiness has been ongoing, as has my illness. My mental state is one that I’ve been open about because it’s gone on since I was 10 years old. My recovery truly started in December, however I have had many forms of counselling in the past.  What I really want to talk about is the time when I started on anti depressants in December of 2014. 10mg a day is what I started…

  • Positive Tuesdays: Week Two.

    Helllloooo! I haven’t posted since this time last week and I do apologise, maybe you haven’t even noticed my short absence but I’ve been at Reading Festival! That’s all I’ve done the past week and I really wanted to make a whole separate post for that tomorrow or something so you’ll just have to wait for that and it’ll be my ‘good thing for the week’. So this whole new thing is about me being positive and to hopefully get any of you to think positively too, but isn’t it a bit hypocritical of me to try to enforce positivity when I’m still having a hard time mentally? I think…

  • Educate Young Minds On Mental Illness.

    Hiiiii! Something really personal to me, and close to me are mental illnesses. Growing up with them and still living with many is common knowledge to those close to me, maybe even anyone who reads this blog because I believe speaking about it is THE most important thing. Last night I was having a bad one, it was almost 11pm and there I was on the brink of having yet another meltdown. Debating whether to wake my mum and have a cry, or just work through it. Then I got pissed off. I took myself back to primary school, I had no idea what anxiety was, no idea what body…