• Struggling During a Pandemic

    Now that’s a title I don’t think you’d ever expect to write in your life. A fucking PANDEMIC?! It’s been months and months and it still seems unreal. At the start of it all my mental health really wasn’t too bad, really I was in the best place I’d been for a long time. I wasn’t too deep in my health anxiety, my body confidence was high and I was happy. I haven’t been too scared by COVID this entire time, which is surprising considering my anxiety is surrounded by health. I just felt like it gives you more of a reason to try and live your life to the…

  • Look who’s back…again

    Hello you, it’s been a while. It’s been too long, you’re like an old friend I keep meaning to meet up with but seem to avoid at all costs, my bad. I would love to say that my absence was for good reason, like I was travelling the world or doing amazing things with my life and ruling the universe. Fact of the matter is, I have just had a fucking funny year and haven’t felt like writing at all. Here I am again though, at a time when my mental health has taken a dip and I turn back to writing. I’ve spent the last few evenings just putting…

  • Take Your Own Advice…

    Hey everyone, As you well know I enjoy doing a blog post when times are very tough – it helps me. Right now I’m having a fucking tough day. Heres the thing I can talk the talk but I can’t walk the walk, I can do blog posts upon blog posts talking about how to try and get through bad spells of mental health but here I am, still struggling daily. Some days are better, some really are not and today is one of those days. I’ll be honest I have spent the day panicking, internally and externally. I have wound my mum up all day and annoyed myself. I…

  • My 2018 Goals

    Hey everyone, firstly I want to wish you all a Happy New Year! I have a good feeling about this one…especially after the shit show of 2017. What the fuck was that, universe?! I’ve got a few things I’d like to do and achieve this year and I am confident and motivated to do them! Here we go 2018… Start Yoga I’ve wanted to start yoga for a long time now but have either not had the motivation or confidence to do it. I feel like it’s going to improve my mental health so much and make me feel so well in general. My best friend Ben gave me such…

  • Light Bulb Moments

    Throughout your mental health journey there will be times when you really think you’ve made a huge breakthrough. Something will ping in your head and you’ll wonder why you are staying within the grips of your mental illness. You will listen to a story, realise the pain you’re putting yourself through or see your mum break down time and time again and you will have little breakthroughs. Unfortunately they don’t always last long and that’s okay. Little breakthroughs are good, well done! But if you go backwards after a couple of days, that’s okay too…the journey was never made to be an easy one. I find that little breakthroughs show…

  • Acceptance of your Mental Health

    As I grow I am really learning to accept my anxiety for what it is. I guess I would see it as a friend, a weird fucking friend who wants to destroy your life but you can’t let them go because they’ve been your friend for so long. So long that you don’t know what you would do without them, because they seem to act like they know what they’re doing, they’ve seen life in a different way and they want to keep you safe. This is bullshit, they don’t want to do any of those things for you. They are like a jealous friend who sees that you have…

  • Ways To Distract and Be Kind To Yourself…

    Hello everyone! So over the months I have been using distraction as a way to erm…distract myself…I fucking rule at writing. ANYWAY, when things are a bit shit I have to distract myself, thats the way to get out of the vicious circle that is anxiety. When I was in my darkest moments even distraction would not work and I still have those days now I’ll be honest! But when I can distract myself it is good and it is fun. It is all about self love, looking after number one and treating number one to the goodness that the world has to offer. I’ve just made a list of…

  • It’s Okay..

    Hello everyone, I hope you are all well! How am I you so eagerly ask? I’m okay…I am getting there. Well and truly getting there, some days are bad, some days are fucking awful but some days are okay. I am slowly getting my motivation back, slowly getting a calmer mind and seeing that it’s all going to be okay day by day. I am almost at the ideal weight my nurses want me to be at and I’ve never reached that point before, I am proud. What a roller coaster it has been. I think about that a lot, I claim this year has been the worst of my…

  • A Letter To Me…From Me (The Good Side)

    To Shannon, You’re struggling and that’s okay. You’ve gone up and down your entire life, this is just a bad time and it will get better I know it will. I wanted to talk to you in a way so you can read this whenever you are struggling and whenever the bad side takes over. I love you and I care for you, more than you know and realise. There is a little bit in there that wants to look after you, not hurt you and that’s me. You listen so strongly to the bad side that it controls you completely, I’m trying my best to fight for you but…

  • “Love” with Anxiety.

    Hellooooo everyone another mental health post, oh me. I’m surrounded by love and support there’s absolutely no denying that. I have more friends than I could ever dream of, I’ve always been lucky to find friends in different places. I have my life long friends, my work friends, my friends from uni, my online friends that I’ve met through bands and my international friends (Erin, that’s you). I have so much love to shower me in.I have a big loving family and a bloody lovely boyfriend. I love to love.The hardest thing with suffering from anxiety and depression is to know that you’re upsetting those who love you so much and…