• Update!

    Hi hi hi, Once again I’ve been so disgustingly unmotivated to write anything on this blog that I’ve abandoned it 5eva. A lot has happened since I left university and when I say left I mean permanently which leaves me thinking about the future… Okay, so here I am a University drop out. Where is my band to start singing around me like on Grease when the chick is a beauty school drop out? Or because I went to a painfully average London university do I not get the privilege?! All year I spent my time wondering if being at university was the right thing for me, I had THE…

  • BIG FAT SIGH.

    I’m totally sighing at life right now. I’ve been absolutely fine for the past few weeks, I returned to London and my mind went back on itself and bummed me out. You see, when I was little my dream was to live in London and work at a magazine – I’m now 19 and a half and have no idea really what I want anymore and it’s infuriating. It’s annoying not knowing whether to take the plunge and drop out of university tomorrow or stick with it and stay being miserable. I’m 19, of course I’m going to change my mind about my life plan but it’s a shame because…

  • What I’ve Learned In Semester 1 – Tips From Me To You.

    Hiiiiiii! Semester 1 is almost over and the past three months have been a very huge learning curve, it’s been an emotional roller coaster if I’m honest. I’ve met people, I’ve had little mental breakdowns and it’s just all been very strange – but also very good. I learnt a lot, some humorous things in fact that I’d like to share with you so heres what I have learned in the past three months and things that I simply want to pass onto you, like tips in a sense I guess? ENJOY.1. No one knows where Suffolk is despite it being an hour and a half drive away from London. 2.…

  • Positive Tuesdays: Week Seven.

    Hello! Yep, I missed another week didn’t I so let’s start a fresh, let’s not focus on the weeks I missed. This is now week 7 okay, but it’s probably 7 and 8 I don’t know…I’M CONFUSED, JUST IGNORE ALL OF THAT.  The past couple of weeks haven’t been my best mentally, I’ll be honest. I won’t lie and say I’ve been a radiant ball of positivity because I really haven’t. I’ve been having a tough time, questioning a lot of things but I’m figuring it out or at least trying. I’ll get back on my feet, I always manage to even when it seems impossible. If I’ve done it…

  • Positive Tuesdays: (Not on a Tuesday) Weeks Five and Six.

    Hiiiiiii! Yes, I understand it’s actually Friday and I haven’t done one of these in 2 weeks now but hey, I’m now a student and I have things to do, people to see, Doritos to eat. It’s been a mad couple of weeks, I’ve been finally settling in after week four of ‘Positive Tuesdays’  and it now kinda feels like home here in my little bedroom in London with my flatmates who already feel like family. We can just talk about anything and everything, I love it. Okay so here are all the good things that have been happening… last week my best friends India and Damian got engaged!!! We’ve literally…

  • Positive Tuesdays: Week Four – UNIVERSITY.

    Helllooooo! As you can see in the title this one is about the thing I’ve been going on about for months and months, my good thing for the week is that I am finally at University! I moved on Saturday, I actually did it. On Friday I had the biggest wobble of all, even contemplating not moving at all and just giving up before I’d given it a chance and I stayed in bed all day when I had jobs to do before leaving but I couldn’t face doing anything because that meant everything was real and it was actually happening, very scary. But I did it, my dad packed…

  • Saturday Is Near.

    I’ve been here almost my whole life, Saturday comes and I’ll be looking at a completely different view. I used to love familiarity, I used to love walking around my estate and going by places I played when I was a kid but it’s now all a bit too familiar, I don’t think I was put on Earth to stay in the same town forever, I think I was put on this Earth to travel and make the most of my life. This change is going to be good. I’ll be spending 3 years in London, my favourite city. I’ll come home and look at this boring view occasionally, but…

  • My Year Out.

    Hiiiiiii! Here I am sat on my bed, 11 months after my year out from education begun and I’m reflecting on all the things I have done in these 11 months, there’s still a month to go until I move to London to start a new adventure and who knows what could happen in that month? You know, when I started this year out I spent days regretting my decision, crying because I’d chickened out of moving to London and I deferred my university place but now I’m looking back at it all I shouldn’t regret a thing. I’ve done so much! I’ve grown as a person in some ways…

  • Decisions, decisions, decisions.

    Making decisions is really scary, it brings on all kinds of anxious feelings. But, we have to make decisions every day – some we don’t even want to think about. My biggest decision recently was whether to go to university or not. After the Christmas holiday, I whacked out a banging personal statement (it was actually rather good, okay) then I applied to five universities. I was aiming to commute every day but the past couple of weeks I thought ‘where am I going to go in this town? I’ve got to move’. Don’t get me wrong, I love my town. It may be simple, there’s not a lot to…